Real thoughts from a submissive
I'm a young, lgbt+ individual who values structure in my day to day life. I went looking for that structure through BDSM. On this blog, you will find my thoughts on kink, mental health, cannabis, and anything else I stumble upon.
Nice to meet you!introduction // November 20th, 2019Hello all! Today, I am writing to you to talk about my personal journey through the BDSM world, and maybe some other topics like cannabis and mental health. Though kink may be my main focus, I hope you find something worth learning in my other writings too. You may call me Theia.
Your PetBlog post // december 6th, 2019I want to be your little pet. When you walk into the door after a long day at work, I want to be there: naked on my hands and knees, my collar on, head tilted and ready for you to use.
My Daddy is...Blog post // december 7th, 2019 My daddy is a lot of things. He is kind, he is encouraging, he is empathetic. He always supports my passions, ideas, and efforts. He makes me feel safe, loved, and welcome. I love that he’s not afraid to call me his boyfriend.
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My thoughts on pet play
Blog post // december 8th, 2019
Pet play is the act of entering a pet or animal-like headspace, whether it be a puppy, cow, pony, or even a mythical creature like a dragon. Or, you could be an owner (handler, master, trainer), which is typically the dominant end of pet play, the person who looks after the pet. But not always! You can have...
WHat is submission to me?
Blog post // december 11th, 2019
When I think of submission, what comes to mind is the risk of being vulnerable. Letting your guard down and being in your most exposed state, both mentally and physically. Giving up control to your dominant partner, and being bent to their will.
My SUn
blog post // december 14th, 2019
“Little boy, come here.”
Hands and knees on the floor, crawling
Closer and closer to you, my Sir
Hands and knees on the floor, crawling
Closer and closer to you, my Sir
My thoughts on service submission
Blog post // december 16th, 2019
Lately, my curiosity has brought me to service submission. There are many different ways to serve someone, and it’s all up to personal preference between the server and the one being served. Probably the most commonly talked about ways to serve someone are performing household duties such as cooking and cleaning, boot-blacking, tea or coffee service, cigar service, and so on.
I popped my piss cherry
blog post // decemeber 18th, 2019
Last night, my brother called me and said something was wrong with his car. Naturally, I began getting ready to leave. As my partner was sitting in the chair at our desk, I sat across from him on the bed. I noticed his cock was showing a bit through his sweatpants. I leaned forward and started touching him, caressing, trailing my fingers over the silhouette.
My thoughts on little space
Blog post // december 22nd, 2019
I am primarily a little, not just in my relationship but in my day to day life. Being little is completely non-sexual for me, and age play is one of my hard limits. I tend to ‘regress’ more often than not.
my experience with collars
blog post // december 26th, 2019
I started buying collars when I was single and interested in kink on my own, rather than with a partner. I grew quite the little collection of my own special collars, each one beautiful in it’s own way. I had never had a symbolic collar until the relationship with my Sir grew notably.
Exploring sexual Little space
Blog post // december 30th, 2019
Last night, I experienced something that hadn’t happened in a very long time. I felt sexual when I was little, but I wasn’t actually age regressed. I was able to enjoy my sexuality with my Daddy while having fun in little space, which turned into an eye-opening (and enjoyable) experience for the both of us.
My 2020 new years resolutions
Blog post // january 6th, 2020
Well, 2019 was very difficult for me. I changed my behaviors, thought patterns, and much, much more. I admitted to many, many mistakes, toxic behavior patterns that I inherited from my family, and discovered many things about my trauma, which turned into making unforgettable breakthroughs with my therapist. I got a new job, even if I hate it, and I passed all my college courses. At the end of 2019, I have been with my partner for over a year and seven months now, and we are getting closer everyday. On top of everything else, I started venturing out into my local kink community towards the end of 2019 and had a fucking blast doing it!
My LGBT identity
Blog post // january 20th, 2020
I am a LGBT individual. I am non-binary, and in terms of sexual preferences the label I feel most comfortable with is gay, though some people may argue that I’m not ‘really’ gay. I guess you could qualify me as pansexual. I have struggled with my identity all my life, from childhood on. It is something I have lived with from the moment I was born, there is no way around it. And finally, I’ve decided I’m okay with that.
My experience with diapers
blog post // february 1st, 2020
The thought of being diapered excites me to no end. Anytime I have a diaper, I am sincerely happy. I can’t put my finger on what exactly it is about them. There’s the headspace they put me in, that of an over-eager child who doesn’t have a care in the world. There’s the feeling of them, the crinkly noise that sends butterflies down my spine. They send me into a fantasy world that is safe, warm, and happy.
The Winter Sads
Blog post // march 9th, 2020
This winter has been a rough one for me. Every winter I develop seasonal depression, due to the decreased light and outdoor activities. This can be really devastating for me, especially combined with my already-there symptoms, such as mood swings, chronic boredom, impulsivity and already long standing periods of depression.